Remembering An Angel...

Two months on my womb...

Was it enough? Have you served God's purpose even though you haven't seen the sunshine yet? I couldn't understand why but I am trying to...

I miss you... There are nights when you join me in my dreams. Such lovely dreams to have you there, I sometimes do not want to wake up!

I often wonder how you would have looked like. Would you have gotten my curly hair? My eyes? Your dad's nose (I hope!)? My lips... Your dad's height? Were you a he or a she?

I would've named you Paris Ysobelle if you were a girl and Phoenix Matthew if you were a boy. I would've loved you no matter what...

I shed tears everytime I remember you. I've stopped blaming the radiologist for not running an ultrasound on you immediately. I stopped blaming even myself. No one wanted that tragedy to happen. Not even your jealous Aunts... All of us were excited to welcome you to the world!

Eventhough I haven't held you to my bosom, I feel you close to my heart. Although I haven't sang lullabies to you, I have a song only for you. Although I haven't changed your diapers, I have so much love for you. My little angel, rest well. Enjoy your dwell in heaven and look over Mommy and Daddy, okay?

Two years ago, I thought lost you forever. Now, I realized, I've kept you forever!