Santa Elves

Dancing with gusto at 17 weeks of pregnancy... ^.^ With me were my fellow elves: Janice (in green blouse), Oslek (in purple blouse), Mel (in yellow blouse), Ude (in red blouse), and Rebbie (in pink blouse).

Whole-day "Sickness" Got Me

Sorry, blog-readers if I haven't been able to update my blog. A blessing it was, indeed. But the blessing seems to be a "gain" wherein I needed pain in the process. (No pain, no gain, they say.) Hah! I know I have been wishing for this blessing for a long time now. Well, now that it's here, I came to a thought - "Be careful what you wish for..."

Must be part of the psychological changes I have to undergo. Ambivalence. I want it yet I don't want it. I can't wait for it to grow yet I'm not ready for the changes that come along with it. I feel blessed yet somehow, I feel cursed.

Why can't I have an enjoyable pregnancy just like my sisters had? I so envy women who experienced a wonderful process of pregnancy. Do I really need to suffer? In a day, I can't count how many times I had to go to the sink to throw up. I can't even eat what I want because my tummy feels sour. My tongue tastes sour, too. How I miss my appetite!

I can't walk fast because my tummy feels heavy with air that doesn't seem to clear up no matter how shrekky I burp every now and then.

I can't put on my make-up. They cause more skin breakouts. And they smudge whenever I throw up and become teary-eyed and stuffy-nosed. Aaaah! There was a time when I couldn't even tolerate the smell of my powder.

I can't even enjoy a spray of my favorite heavenly scent by Victoria Secret because I can't tolerate the smell of it. My daily scent now is an oil combo of "mansanilla" and efficascent. Whew!

I often cry because I pity myself. I miss my old chummy, bubbly self. My friends miss the old me, too. The only thing that keeps me going right now is the image of my woud-be baby in my head. If going through with this means my baby will survive inside my uterus for nine months, then I can live with it. Two of my pregnant friends also told me that the ordeal will last only for four months. So I have two more months to suffer. I'm halfway there.

So guys, sorry if I'm not myself lately (I don't answer your ym messages and text messages). Please understand that a whole-day "sickness" got me. Two more months, they say, because today, my tummy just turned two months!

Thank God It's Friday!

Today, I woke up with a grateful heart. I have so much to be thankful for. First of all, today is our 118th monthsary. Two more months, and it's going to be our 10th year together! ^.^

Another thing to be thankful for is my very supportive and loving family. Last weekend, I got to talk to our eldest sister whom I haven't spoken to for four months because of a petty disagreement and misunderstanding. ^.^ My Kuya is staying with us right now and his girlfriend keeps cooking lots of food for us. My Ate Leda and her daughter, Krisette, visited us for seven days. It was a short visit but we spent quality time together. Seeing my pamangkins bond really gave a peace of mind and elation.

I just signed up for Mary Kay last Tuesday and already made a sale last Wednesday and received the payment yesterday in full. Such bliss!

My supervisor just announced to me last Monday that I am one of the four teachers being considered for TLship. We are due to be trained ASAP. It's flattering because I am the youngest among us in terms of length of tenure.

All these and another one... Another blessing was sent by heavens! Thank you, Lord for answering my prayers and for showering me with blessings more than I have ever expected. You truly are a generous God. I offer you this happiness. Thank you!!!

My Christmas Wish List...

Why this early? I'm trying to give my fairy godmothers enough time to include my wishes in their budget and enough time to shop. Fairy godfathers are also welcome to list down my wishes on their organizers... ^.^

10.) Make up...

Maybelline Great Lash Mascara (I lost my old one... Huhuhu!) - No other mascara would do for me.

Bobby Brown Set would be a nice one to wear to welcome a fab new year!

9.) Books

I've been wanting to own a copy of this phenomenal book!

Another collection I want to add to my library -- Paulo Coelho Books. I've read some of them but I also would like to have a copy which I can scan and read again whenever I feel like reading!

*The Alchemist

*The Witch of Portobello

*Veronica Decides To Die

*The Devil and Miss Prym ***etc...

8.) Scents...

My favorite everyday wear -- Bath and Body Work's Cotton Blossoms...

My not-so-ordinary-days alternative: Victoria Secret's Heavenly!

For special occasion: Red Doors By Elizabeth Arden...

7.) Nine West Shoes...

Any of these would be greatly appreciated. I already have two comfy shoes from Nine West. I like it a lot! I was thinking of Balenciaga but did you see the price?!

6.) Playstation Portable (PSP)

Another boredom-buster especially while waiting for the bus to move. Ugh!

5.) An Addition to my Kipling Bag Collection

A red handbag... I left my red backpack in Zamboanga! Kindly send it to me, please!!!

4.) A new cellular phone - Nokia N-95 8GB

My ultimate gadget for the year 2008!

3.) Magic-Sing

A nice way to spend a boring weekend and not needing to leave the house.

2.) A Toyota Fortuner Car

That's my dream car these days... Cheap, right? Any four-wheeled, roofed thing would do.

1.) A Baby Boy

Even just a positive pregnancy test before the end of 2008 would be enough! So, send me lots of baby-dusts, please!

I Love Seed Interactive!!!

http://seedinteractive.blogspot.com/

Guys, please visit the website of my old friend, Ryann Elumba. His blog's aim is to spread awareness to the world that Zamboanga Peninsula should not only be newsworthy for bombing incidents and abu sayaff activities and that a Multimedia industry is blossoming in this promising area.

I am not a techie (te-kee) but I really find the site absolutely entertaining and very educational! I especially enjoy the news on multimedia and some of his wondrous works which include photography, video production, graphic design, web development, animation and interactive media.

As his friend back in college and a Zamboanguena, I am just so proud to vote for this guy and his website on the 1st Philippine Blog Awards! I hope that I also get nominated next year! ^.^

Kudos, my friend! I love you and see you soon!

38 Hours Straight of Being Awake...

September 12, 2008 Friday

I woke up at 8 am. My husband was giving me an annoying dose of morning tickles. I was still so sleepy. "A nice cup of French vanilla instant cappuccino would work magic on me later," I thought.

While in the office, everyone was already bugging me about the night out which we've planned a few days before. We needed a space in a family KTV. We had two choices in our minds: MetroWalk in Ortigas and Jupiter St in Makati. We called some KTV Bars only to found out that most of them were already fully booked.

Up until the last hour of our shift, we still hadn't decided where to go. We decided to do a walk-in and maybe wait for our turn, instead.

End of shift... Finally, we all agreed to go to Jupiter St. But wait, who were coming? The initial expected number of participants was trimmed down from 15 to 8.

Music 21... We were in the 6th place in the waiting list. But then, Maica's PR really worked for us, we were suddenly accelerated to being 1st. ^.^ We entered Room 5 just a few minutes before midnight.

September 13, 2008 Saturday

We had a feast. I'd never eaten midnight snacks that heavy. Then, the mini-concert started. I especially liked the microphone. It made me feel like a pro singer. I usually don't sing that much on videokes because I know I'm not gifted with a voice. But, boy, the mic worked magic. Hahaha!

We didn't even notice that our time was about to be finished and we were still having so much fun. So we decided to extend our time one more hour.

We went out of the bar a few minutes before 4 am. We decided to head to MCDonald's to enjoy a cup of coffee until the morn comes. Most of us were afraid to go home while it's still dark.

A nice cup of coffee (hot choco for Sher), and an interesting talk took only a few sips before we realized that the sun had already risen and it was time for us to part ways.

I reached home at 7:30am. I had a quick 10-minute nap at the bus and a 5-minute nap at the tricycle. When I reached home, I showed my husband some photos taken on the first night out I had without him since we were married. He was teasing me and I didn't know what other comments he remarked because I fell fast asleep. But then, he was really determined for us to go to my sister's condo unit in the morning because I had to escort my nephew and my niece to a birthday party at Vivere Suites in Alabang at 2:00pm.

I was close to deciding about backing out from the said event and even told my husband that he can go instead of me. I was so sleepy and groggy that when he lifted me from the sofa, I thought he was going to transfer me to our more comfortable bed. Instead, he brought me to our bedroom shower and I got so mad because he ran the shower on my fully clothed and half-awake body. That left me with no choice and so I had to take the shower and prepare myself because I had another engagement that day.

We arrived at my sister's condo unit at 10:30am. I was fully awake by then. The cold shower did wonders to keep me completely conscious. We hailed a taxi at 2:00pm to attend the Hawaiian-inspired party of the A-Listers.

The party started at 4:30pm. Huhuhu! But I got so fascinated with the beautiful kids around and some mothers who tried to make friends with me so I was able to maintain an alert state of mind.

There were a lot of activities for the kids; that's why the party lasted for 4 hours. We headed home at 8:30pm. We got to the condo at 9:15pm. Mhark and I got home at 9:45pm. After washing my face and doing my nightly regimen, I put on my eye cover and went straight to Slumber Street at around 10:00pm. ^.^

September 14, 2008 Sunday

I woke up at 11:30 am. Good thing it was Sunday so it was okay to oversleep. ^.^

How To Make A Baby Boy?

One of the requests I got from the readers of my previous post is for me to come up with an article fully discussing how to manipulate fate with the intent to produce a male offspring. I promised to come up with an entry about it during the weekend but I wasn't able to find time. I also couldn't kindle the inspiration to write something up.

Researching tends to be disappointing because of several contradicting theories and breakthroughs in genetic engineering. But more or less, this is what I've come up with.

Let's start with the basics. The sex of the baby will be determined according to what spermatozoa fertilized the ovum. There are two types of sperm cell: the X-bearing (male) and the Y-bearing (female). When an X-bearing sperm fertilizes the ovum, a baby girl is conceived. When a Y-bearing sperm does, a baby boy is conceived.

According to Shettle's theory, male sperm swim faster then the female sperm. However, male sperm die more quickly while the female sperm survive longer. Many claim that the Shettle's method is effective by 75% if followed closely. Other methods are merely theories from different experts and non-experts and I have decided to come up with the following formula to ensure a male offspring:

1.) Use sexual positions with deeper penetration. This is to give preference to the faster-swimming male sperm.
2.) Have sex as close to ovulation as possible (the day before, the day of and a day after). If you have sex 2-3 days before ovulation, chances are, the longer-lasting female sperm will be the ones waiting to fertilize the ovum.
3.) The to-be mother should have an orgasm and preferably before their partner ejaculates. An orgasm changes vaginal pH to an acidic one. Apparently, an acidic environment kills female sperm.
4.) For the to-be mother to establish an acidic environment in the cervix, she must eat more meat less chocolate, fewer vegetables and less fish.
5.) Another way for to-be mother to create an acidic vaginal pH, she may use acidic douches before intercourse.
6.) The to-be father also has to drink coffee because coffee was found to stimulate the male sperm.
7.) Another thing that the to-be father has to do is take a cold shower before the act because girl sperm were found not to like the cold.
8.) To increase the sperm count, the to-be father has to eat plenty of nuts and vitamin E and zinc rich foods. Some studies showed that naturally, there are more male sperm than female sperm present in the semen.

Couples, goodluck on your attempt to have a baby boy for your first born! I sprinkle you with lots of baby dusts... See you at the DR next year! ^.^

Let Us Multiply!

Two years after I lost my first baby in a miscarriage, I have decided that I want to get pregnant again. Now the first conception was unplanned but it was definitely wanted. The trauma from that experience made my husband and me hesitant to have a baby again. The doctor said that I will have a delicate pregnancy in the future. It’s pretty scary, huh?

During my brief first gestation, I didn't know how to go about it. Although I am a registered nurse and I used to give health education to my patients, I felt like I'm ignorant when it comes to maternity.

What I've been up lately? I researched about pregnancy. I wanted to learn how to take care of myself while I am pregnant, and most importantly, how to get pregnant fast. This is what I learned:

1.) Saliva can actually kill sperm! So, fellatio and cunnilingus should be avoided if one wants to conceive.

2.) Other artificial lubes like KY jelly, petroleum jelly and even vegetable oils will damage the sperm.

3.) Some vaginal sprays are not sperm-friendly, either.

4.) There should be a fresh shipment of sperm waiting at the fallopian tube to fertilize the egg. A fresh supply of sperm every 48 hours will ensure that the sperm are not tired and sluggish.

5.) Let's talk about vitamins C. Low doses of vitamin C can increase fertility. It can improve the quality of cervical fluid that transports sperm to meet up with the egg. But too much vitamin C can dry up the cervical mucus. So mommy-to-be, avoid taking mega-doses of ascorbic acid.

6.) A good laugh lasting for 15 minutes a day can increase the chances of getting pregnant. "Laugh Therapy" is a good stress-reduction technique. Studies show a great link between conception and stress.

7.) Avoid fish that is high in mercury. Too much mercury can affect the nervous system of the unborn baby. One kind of fish that many people eat too frequently is white tuna in can. This should be avoided. Other fishes high in mercury content are shark, swordfish, king mackerel, and tilefish.

8.) Avoid coffee and other beverages that contain caffeine including sodas and teas. I found out from my research that Sprite, 7-Up and A&W Root beer have 0 mg caffeine. (Yipee!) Decaf coffee actually has 1-5 mg caffeine. (Oh, no!)

9.) Chocolates have caffeine, too. Dark chocolate has more caffeine content than milk chocolate.

10.) Some medications taken by the father-to-be also have a great impact on the conception.
Tagamet, used to treat ulcer and UTI, can have a harmful effect to sperm production and sperm count. Consult your OB-Gyn on what medications should you and your husband have to eliminate.

I hope these facts have put away some clouds in your mind. It pays to be ignorant. And the price is high... More about baby-making tips to come... ^-^

Quack, Quack...

I have a terrible muscle pain in the upper leg area. The culprit? It's the duck walk game conducted by Sir Jhaze during our team building activity in Batangas. It's so painful that I could hardly take one step higher or lower in our stairway. It slowed me down 70%! I haven't experienced such muscle ache in my entire life.

I haven't experienced a company outing, either. So I guess I'll have to call it quits. ^.^ The pain from the said event is worth it. Afterall, we won the first place for the said game, and 2nd place overall.

It was such a long day for me, haven't been able to sleep the night before. After the shift, we proceeded to Sir Wilson's place. There were nine of us -- Sir Wilson, Nikka, Maica, Dhang, Noel, Jason, Ruth, Gian and me. We rode a van on the way there. When we reached the place, we enjoyed videoke while preparing our midnight meal. Then, a tattoo artist started painting Nikka, Maica, Wilson and I was supposed to be included. But I couldn't make up my mind on where and what tattoo to put on me. Goodness! It was only henna and nothing permanent yet I was so hesitant. Nature won and we ran out of good ink. Hahaha! It could have been my first time to have a body art.

Call time was at 5:30am. We arrived in the meeting place at 5:10am. The bus started moving at around 6:30am because we were waiting for some more people to arrive. The trip to Mabini, Batangas took about three and a half hours with a couple of stop over in between. The first stop over was at McDo, where we had breakfast. The next one was a short bladder break at a gasoline station. We arrived in the land travel end point at around 10am. We stayed at a resort for about half an hour to prepare ourselves for a boat ride to an island where the team building was to be held. We were supposed to go to Bayawak Beach but because the boatmen said it was too risky to go there, we settled for another resort -- the Olympic Point.

It was a big resort and it looked better than the first shore we first checked out. The sea wasn't that sandy though. You have to swim with the rough surface underneath. But to a sea-lover like me, it was such a heaven.

We arrived sometime at noon. First, each team had to build a tent out of the materials provided. There were ten of us in the group. Three of them were the Korean staff from Avalon. These three were executives, mind you. But they were able to build a nice tent for the group quickly. We were the first one to finish.

Then, a series of games were conducted. The third one - duck walk really made an impact on my leg muscles. Our Korean teammates - Cho, Kim and Park, whom I believe were military men at one point in their lives, joined us. (Korean men are forced to join the military as soon as they reach the age of 21.) They were very strong and swift. Our team captain, the big boss who was also my partner, was literally dragging me towards the end point and Mhay, another teammate was pushing me badly, just so we end up winning the race. To top it all, I got bruises and my knees were scratched. Ugh!

We had lunch after the tiresome activities. Pork Steak, Chicken Barbeque, Hotdogs and Eggplant Ensalada were flowing. And lots and lots of sodas and chips to munch on... Then, we enjoyed another round of videoke. Later, I dipped in the sea and swam for half an hour! The water felt so good. I didn't mind the heat of the sun. I didn't care if I get tanned...

We borrowed the snorkeling materials that our Korean counterparts used. It was a wonderful experience. The only problem is that, I messed it up every time I breathe in. A lot of water got onto the mask. I think the mask was too big for me. So I just snorkeled with my bare eyes. By the time, I got out of the water, it looked like I cried hard. Russel told me to let it go... Hahaha!

When the time came when I had been awake for more than 24 hours, I decided to take a power nap because my body couldn't take it anymore... I was able to sleep for maybe an hour. When I woke up, I was energized.

I played basketball. I wanted to see if I could still dribble the ball and shoot some basket. Yes, I did! In fact, I did improve in shooting lay-ups. Gosh, it has been a long time since I handled a basketball. Ms. Elly, our Department Manager, joined me. It was her first time to practice shooting. I taught her about the "boarding rules" and she was able to make a goal! I was so proud of her! Am I not a good teacher? (^.~)

After that, we were called in for our finale game where our team ended second. The awarding ceremony followed. Then, it was time to pack up. We left the island at past five in the afternoon. The boat ride would only take about 20 minutes. Not if something happened... Then, it happened. We got stranded in the middle of the angry waves when the engine of our boat stopped working. We were very scared. We prayed for the boat to work again but it did not happen. I realized that the boat isn't stable without it's engine roaring. Another boat, from which some of our teammates were on, fetched us and brought us safely back to shore. Whew!

We went back to the resort were we first got into. We took a shower there and had our farewell meal. Then, we rode the bus on the way back to Globe Towers, where we started. I spent 80% of travel time sleeping. ^-^ We arrived there at 10pm.

It was such a wonderful experience; all of us are excited for the Christmas party! What could Sir Jhaze have in store for us??? ^-^

Liars, Liars...

Why do people lie? "To protect other people's feelings," said one of the friendster surveys I read. -- That is the most fabricated excuse and self-justification I have ever heard. The pathologic liar who said this must have believed her very own lies...

According to an article I read, "Lying is a technique that is used to influence, control and manipulate other’s thoughts, feelings, and behaviors."

To that, I totally agree. I am not a fan of liars myself. In fact, I abhor this kind of people. I try to stay away from them. But as the saying goes, "It takes one to know one" so, it takes a while for me to discover a potentially dangerous company. I often become a victim of these deceitful people.

A notable personality disorder often associated with liars is "Narcissism." It is a condition characterized by an inflated sense of self-importance, need for admiration, extreme self-involvement, and lack of empathy for others. A true narcissist is almost totally wrapped up in himself, and the entire world revolves around his needs and desires.

There are two kinds of lying: a lie of commission and a lie of omission. So, either you twisted the truth or you withheld it, you are still considered a liar. Psychologists came up with five major grounds why liars do what they do:
1.) to avoid punishment or possible rejection
2.) to seek approval or to create a favorable impression
3.) to maintain privacy
4.) to avoid conflict
5.) to regulate power

Whatever reasons a liar might come up with; it still comes to an ultimate reason -- for personal gain. So how can a liar be somewhat humanistic in lying as what the subject in the survey wanted to point out?!

There are three kinds of liars: the situational, the pathological and the chronic liars. Even so, I don't think there is someone in any of the three categories that we can consider as "less evil."

Another funny term that liars came up with is "white lie." It is still a lie whether you color it white, grey or black. No matter what the intentions are, still, "the end does not justify the means."

I Welcome Thee, August!!!

Welcoming a new month with a positive outlook had been a history in my monthly tasks. Having a hectic schedule the past few weeks and with the hardships that have gone my way the past months, how can I possibly even have a positivist mind-set?!

However, I have finally decided to free myself from a stressful assignment, from the thoughtless people and from the miseries. It's time to liberate myself! And I came out of it with a beautiful perspective outlined in my horizons. The cheerfulness is back in my heart. The smile is back in my eyes. This is the price for taking charge!


I greeted the first day of August with a pair of red Nine West stiletto boots. I strut my way to work, not minding the surprised look on some people's eyes.


"These boots are made for walking...
That's just what they'll do.
One of these days, these boots are gonna
walk all over you!"
-Hahahaha!


It's a promising month! I'm anticipating a lot of beautiful things to come my way. Nothing and no one can destroy my festive mood. Make way or else my boots are going to run all over you! Nyahahahaha!

I Was Humbled And I Feel Blessed!

These past few days, I've gone really quiet. I got really scared of myself because it's not my nature to be quiet even just for a day... I thought I was losing it...

I had so much to share to you, readers. There were pains and struggles. I wanted to defend myself from negative issues but I decided to just remain quiet. I have long accepted defeat.

Being silent did me good. It was a cleansing therapy for me. It's been a long time since I bit my tongue whenever I feel like confronting a situation. It's been a long time since I allowed people to trespass against me and never retaliate. It had to end, somehow.

I had become a fighter since I moved to the city. I guess I've long outgrown being meek. There were incidents wherein I realized that being humble and kindhearted would only encourage other people to bully me. Now, the weaker side of me has resurfaced. I never thought I had missed it.

It feels good to be submissive again. Submissive to God, my driver and navigator... Submissive to my husband, my co-passenger to whom God assigned me as a partner. Submissive to the greater force who knows to reward a humble heart and punish a proud one...

My Hero

Humbling experiences and losses are perfect instances to stop and re-assess myself, my relationships and sequences of events that happened in my life.

In the end, I realized that there's only one hero in my life - my very own self. I'm lucky though, I have a side kick who backs me up. ^-^

So, in the midst of a trial, the adversaries don't seem to affect me that much. They don't matter anymore. It's time to cut some strings to keep the important ties from breaking.

I admit that I can't have it all but at least I was able to keep a few -- those that really matter. And for me, they're enough...

Consistently Inconsistent

It's really hard to deal with people who are inconsistent. I think they're the most difficult people to live with. But there's no way I can run away from this sort of people. So I guess I have to stop running and face them squarely. That is the way to conquer!

One of the few things I really abhor are people who would resort to trickery just to save their asses. Excuse me for the language, but I'm making a point here. Well, we can't prevent people from being sneaky and deceitful especially if these traits are their way by nature.

This is always my fault: I trust easily. I give my all in everything I do. I put so much passion in something that I believe in. And then, I become exploited. Still, I wait patiently until the other party realizes it. And then, I speak up and would still give chances. One, two, three...

And that would be the end of it. The other party might think that it won, but it's actually at the losing end. The other party won't win any more of my respect and loyalty. Boom, the other party lost a supposedly loyal follower.

I am loyal. Too loyal, even to some people who've done me wrong. But everything has its limits. I am part of that everything. I hate it when I look inconsistent because of the consistent inconsistencies of the other party. #30

Why Is It So Hard To Let Go?

I submitted my resignation about a week ago. I didn't put any reasons for my "irrevocable" resignation. Why? I didn't want my superiors to adjust to those reasons and I will be obliged to stay because of that.

However, when I talked to our HR manager, she asked me what my grievances are. And thinking that I should at least share it before I leave the company, I told her. I said that the schedule they are giving me is just impossible. Four and sometimes five consecutive classes with no interruptions. How can I deliver well? Well, I was able to deliver, true... But I wanted to give my students quality classes and sensible reports. I am very perfectionist when it comes to having the job done and I feel that I can deliver better if I am given a manageable schedule.

A meeting was called among my superiors. They discussed about my impending resignation. And they learned about my grievance. Then they asked if my schedule was adjusted, would I stay? But I still have another issue. I don't feel like I'm paid enough.

I receive the same amount as some of my colleague who have less workload than me. They said that my assignment to a new account which requires more qualification is actually a promotion. That should have somehow set me apart from the rest. Not that I am being a braggart. I just feel that I am under appreciated. One former colleague even quit because of the demands of the account that we are both handling. And she's handling only one third the number of the students that I have. Imagine??? She was getting more than what I am getting!

Call me inconsistent but the closer I get to the date of the effectivity of my resignation, the harder it gets for me to let go of the job. My students, whom I have learned to love, are so hard to leave. And there's a proposition to adjust my schedule and lessen my load and negotiate for a raise. So I am staying. For now...

Promises. I'm holding on to them at the moment. I will give a time lag of two weeks to see if these promises would materialize. And until then, I will keep this thought on my mind, "Why is it so hard to let go?" Or is it really?

Just Thinking Aloud...

I want to get rid of them... But I can't. They've become more than just a part of me. Now, I'm losing control. The anger, can it really grow this huge? The pain, can it really eat me whole? A lot of people tell me to let go. Really let go... Beyond the motives... Not just for a show... But how? I don't know where to start and how to go about. Everytime I try to move on, something keeps holding on. This is greater than a moster. It's like a haunting, restless spirit whose got monsterlike capabilities and gigantic powers. I am losing again. And I'm so confused. Isn't it true that we actually win when we accept defeat? Why don't I feel victorious? Over and over, I feel the pain. It doesn't subside. How I wish I haven't known these cruel people who keep putting me through these miseries. Is it possible? Can a phoenix rise from the ashes twice? Will I end up victorious? Do good guys always win in the end? I can't lose hope. I must stick to my faith. I will win against these monsters. I will win against these cruel people. Justice is always served to the selfish, thoughtless people. I can almost smell vistory. I can almost taste it!

A Busy Weekend...

Got home at 12 midnight of Friday (technically, Saturday). But I was able to sleep at 2am because our neighbor had a drinking party. I could hear the noise of the drunkards from our bedroom. Luckily, it rained at 2am, so the noisy drunkards had no choice but to call it a night. I woke up at 6am. With barely 4 hours of sleep, I took a shower. It was cold and I was groggy but I kept of thinking I was doing it for my niece. I am attending a Parent-Teacher's Conference at her school since I stand as her guardian while her parents are abroad.

I didn't know I had to wear a green shirt. So, I was the only one in pink in the Kindergarten group. How's that for starters? I thought I'd have a lousy time at the conference but it turned out fun! The directress of the school prepared some games -- mind ticklers, my favorite -- after the presentation of expectations by the parents. And the parents were really friendly and nice and in no time, camaraderie among the group became very evident.

I kinda like the atmosphere at Vanessa's school. Hmmm, How I wish I was attending my own daughter's PTC... After a simple snack at 11am, the conference ended.

I went back to the condo and invited Vince and Vanessa out. We went to Storyland of Southmall. We've brought Vanessa there. So I'm guessing Vince would also like to try it. I guessed it right. Vince radiated with glee when we entered Storyland. I let him and Vanessa ride the roller coaster together. I told him to take care of his sister. And he did. ^-^ I was so happy!

We left the mall at 5pm because Vince had an appointment with the dentist. Mhark and I headed back to our place to see the movie Hancock. What a nice movie! I liked it!

Eventhough I lacked sleep, I was alert the whole time. We went home at 9pm. We had dinner and we went to bed right after.

The next day, Mhark woke me up at 7:30am because we had to buy food at the market. We prepared breakfast together (ginisang taugi), ate it and then, he let me go back to sleep because I was really sleepy. I woke up at 2pm. I prepared lunch for him and then, I cleaned my nails and applied nail polish on them. Right after, I cleaned the house. Not thoroughly, though. I will remember next time to do the cleaning right before having my nail polish on. ^-^

Then, we attended a mass. The priest's sermon was about "thanking and thinking". Hmm, I kinda realized I wasn't giving a lot to others. This should change.

Then, we just bought ice cream and used it as a spread of a tasty bread. Yummy! I didn't like the idea of eating ice cream with bread but when Mhark let me try it, it simply tasted delicious!

Then, I checked my e-mails, my friendster accounts and my blogsites. I wasn't decided yet what to write or update but it took me 3 hours just browsing around... So I slept at 2am. That's why I woke up late today...