Must be another birthday blues... My 27th birthday is coming really soon and I got no plans at all. My friends have already been sending in "feelers" but heck, I got work that day and may be we would push through with our plans on Friday night in MetroWalk.
Just have been thinking lately. Especially at night, on my way home when the bus would wait for possible riders in Ayala... Hmmm... Am I contented with my life so far?
The answer is: Yes! I am very contented with my present situation so far. Other people may be complaining but I am very much happy with where I am right now and of what I have!
I understand them, though. Eversince I was a child, I met a lot of people who dreamed for me.
My father dreamed of me becoming a lawyer because he was convinced that I was great at debates and alibis.
My mother dreamed of me becoming a nurse -- to fulfill her frustration of becoming one herself.
My sisters dreamed of me marrying someone rich and famous and a genius because they thought I could hook myself to one who is rich-and-famous-and-a-genius.
My elementary teachers dreamed "something big" for me because they thought I have the potentials...
My high school teachers dreamed even "bigger" for me because they thought I have mastered my potentials well.
When I graduated college, my mother and sisters dreamed of me joining them in the US because they thought I have the tools (being an RN) and whatever it needs to get a US visa.
My fans back in pageant days dreamed for me to become a star or a beauty titlist of a prestigious beauty pageant such as Bb. Pilipinas someday.
My fans in journalism dreamed with me when I wanted to become a famous journalist...
My fans in dancing dreamed of me becoming a member of "Sexbomb"...
Many of the mothers in our town dreamed of making me their "daughter-in-law"...
Hahaha! Countless dreams from different people...
But have I truly thought of what I wanted to become? No... Because I was so busy minding other people's dreams for me. I was very busy listening to them and trying to make some of those dreams come true. And I became lost because their dreams confused me and on my way to fulfilling them, I realized they were not what I wanted!
So what do I want? Heck, I'm getting another year older and I am not yet sure. One thing is sure though, I think I have found my dreamed-of "one true love" along the way...
And so far, I am contented just finding him and being with him. And it doesn't really matter where I am and what I have as long as I have him and I'm with him. I am happy! My heart says I am happy!
As for my other dreams? I still have to make up my mind on so many things. One of these days, I might make a list to finalize everything. Afterall, it's never too late to dream!
But for now, I am busy making one of my dreams come true: becoming a mother!
Just have been thinking lately. Especially at night, on my way home when the bus would wait for possible riders in Ayala... Hmmm... Am I contented with my life so far?
The answer is: Yes! I am very contented with my present situation so far. Other people may be complaining but I am very much happy with where I am right now and of what I have!
I understand them, though. Eversince I was a child, I met a lot of people who dreamed for me.
My father dreamed of me becoming a lawyer because he was convinced that I was great at debates and alibis.
My mother dreamed of me becoming a nurse -- to fulfill her frustration of becoming one herself.
My sisters dreamed of me marrying someone rich and famous and a genius because they thought I could hook myself to one who is rich-and-famous-and-a-genius.
My elementary teachers dreamed "something big" for me because they thought I have the potentials...
My high school teachers dreamed even "bigger" for me because they thought I have mastered my potentials well.
When I graduated college, my mother and sisters dreamed of me joining them in the US because they thought I have the tools (being an RN) and whatever it needs to get a US visa.
My fans back in pageant days dreamed for me to become a star or a beauty titlist of a prestigious beauty pageant such as Bb. Pilipinas someday.
My fans in journalism dreamed with me when I wanted to become a famous journalist...
My fans in dancing dreamed of me becoming a member of "Sexbomb"...
Many of the mothers in our town dreamed of making me their "daughter-in-law"...
Hahaha! Countless dreams from different people...
But have I truly thought of what I wanted to become? No... Because I was so busy minding other people's dreams for me. I was very busy listening to them and trying to make some of those dreams come true. And I became lost because their dreams confused me and on my way to fulfilling them, I realized they were not what I wanted!
So what do I want? Heck, I'm getting another year older and I am not yet sure. One thing is sure though, I think I have found my dreamed-of "one true love" along the way...
And so far, I am contented just finding him and being with him. And it doesn't really matter where I am and what I have as long as I have him and I'm with him. I am happy! My heart says I am happy!
As for my other dreams? I still have to make up my mind on so many things. One of these days, I might make a list to finalize everything. Afterall, it's never too late to dream!
But for now, I am busy making one of my dreams come true: becoming a mother!
