I Am Finally Free!

It's a wonderful feeling to feel lighter again. Sure, I'm getting heavier and heavier being pregnant and all. But having a lighter soul makes my journey easier.


Everybody at work noticed the glow in my eyes. All of them said that my baby might be a girl. It might be true or not, I still have to know it two weeks after today when I schedule myself for an ultrasound.


What's all this glow all about? I've been talking about inner beauty for years now, never actually thought that I would be a living example of which.


My first step is letting go of the pain, the hatred, and anger. Saying sorry to the people I hurt along the way is the next step. It is a choice. The reactions of the other parties aren't that relevant at all. I have come to terms with the fact that I cannot force reconciliation. Having healed from the wounds inflicted on me doesn't mean the other parties have experienced the same. I am not waiting for that either. No expectations, I am just acting upon what is right...


And now, I can see the light in my eyes again. No more evil thoughts. No more evil plots. What's left is positivism and focus on things which are more important.


I am preparing myself to become a good mother to the baby in my womb. He/she is kicking right now. Is he/she happy that Mom is finally at peace? I bet he/she is.


I am free! Free to see the real beauty of the world... Free to love with all my heart... Free to enjoy life to the fullest!

New Year, New Life

My past year had been full of bitterness and hatred. I have decided to erase all that. I have decided to let go of the negativity.


Sorry to all the people whom I have hurt in the past year. I'm deeply sorry if I have directly or indirectly inflicted pain in you: Daddy Mario, Mommy Nelia, Ate Maan, Joy and the others who were greatly affected by my "pouring out."


Thank you for the people who stood by me. I appreciate all the love you have extended to me. Looking forward to more love from you this year. ^.^


To my friends, thanks for the genuine care. I cherish you all in my heart.


To my family, thanks for understanding and for enlightening me. I am so grateful for all of you.


To my husband, thanks for teaching me a lesson. I now know why God led me to you...


To our Almighty Father, thanks for leading me back into your loving arms.


Happy New Year, everyone!!!